There is a family in our church who lost their baby at 22 weeks into the pregnancy. It just happened a couple days ago. She was born and had a strong heartbeat and they were able to hold her for a few minutes before Jesus took her home. David and I went to visit them that night in the hospital, and that was the first time I had met them. I was so encouraged by their perspective. They were so real and so honest about the emotion they felt but at the same time were able to see God’s faithfulness in the midst of it.
David called me at 5:00 that day and told me about what happened and asked if I would go with him to the hospital. As I talked to him on the phone, I had been in my own world all day and for a split second I felt selfish about the fact that it was our date night. I am being very real, and am embarrassed to even admit that. But I was immediately flooded with better perspective that this is what loving people is really about. Real ministry hardly ever happens on my timetable. It is so good for me to put my plans aside and remember what we are really here for. This is what I pray God will let me do! Show love to people when it really matters. How often do we really get the opportunity to be there when someone is hurting? What a pure blessing to be there! And I was filled with peace and fulfillment, feeling so blessed to be there for this family at such a crucial time. Thank you God for bringing us here to do this. Thank you Holy Spirit for your work in me to save me from myself.
I think sometimes churchgoers see their staff families as really holy or spiritual or something. I have been feeling anything but that lately, and I just wish I could take that stigma away so people could see that we are just like them. . . Unfortunately still dealing day after day with the same laziness and selfishness and pride that has always been there. It is evidence of God’s work in me though when I act in ways other than what serves my own best interest. There is Someone alive in me who can influence me for His glory. What a wonderful hope!