As it turns out, I only have a week left at work. . . this coming Monday the 21st will be my last day! I do have mixed feelings because I love what I do and have really great bonds with so many of my clients. I also absolutely love my workplace and the people I rub shoulders with every day. The Christian Counseling Center has so many quality people and I can’t say enough about the supportive, encouraging, sharpening environment I’ve been privileged to work in.
So that’s on the one hand. . . on the other hand I am noticing more and more how it is simply time for me to move on to a new stage in life. Even down to small things like how uncomfortable I am in my chair! For the past few weeks I’ve been robbing a pillow from the office next door to put behind my back, and even with it today I just could not get comfortable. And I notice that sometimes when I talk during session it sounds like I’ve just run up a flight of stairs!
And I believe I am starting to experience Braxton Hicks contractions. I know they are normal and many women have them in later stages of pregnancy, but it’s rather difficult to stay engaged when so much is going on in your tummy! I think I’ll graciously stop working early enough to avoid potential water-breakage in a counseling session. I’m supposed to be helping people work through trauma, not causing it myself!
So next week after I finish work on Monday David is picking me up and we’re going to load up all my books and lamps and head out to dinner to celebrate! Many people are asking me how long I’ll be off work, and if I plan to go back. The reality is I just don’t have an answer. I’ve never really been someone who has to have a plan, and besides, many people who make plans about going back to work after their first baby change them anyways. I think we’ll take it day by day and if one day down the road God leads our family in such a way that involves me working again, I’ll go right back to the Christian Counseling Center and ask for a job! But for now, I am thankful to my sweet husband for allowing me to stop working and prepare for a baby!