This pregnancy of mine has been so different than my last! Aside from the whole not finding out that I was even pregnant until I was 20 weeks . . . I mean I’m sure that had something to do with it, but I have to remind myself I’m pregnant sometimes! It just came out of nowhere, so now I find myself going about my day not even really engaging at all with the growing baby inside of me! I know she’s there because she is quite active and is very busy doing her thing, but the only reason I even know I’m 26 weeks is because I went to the doctor on Thursday.
But another thing that is so weird is that to tell the truth, its been hard to imagine having another baby girl and loving her as much as we love Ella. I know that probably sounds silly, but I think that is part of the reason why I’ve been a bit emotionally distant from this pregnancy. I know when she comes everything will change and I will understand what it feels like to love two baby girls to the fullest, but right now its still very surreal.
Another thing I know will help is when we finally land on a name and actually commit to it. We aren’t there yet. I’ve got a friend who is bringing me a name book to borrow . . . but baby girl names are hard for us! Most people say the opposite, that they have a billion girls names they like but no boys names. David and I only had 2 girl names we really liked and we used them both on our first baby! Ella Jordyn 🙂
But of course with all this said we are super excited about all this, and thrilled that we only have to wait a couple more months to meet this new member of our family, whatever her name is!